even though it seems surreal still, i feel so sad, i feel so weird, i feel slightly numb, and slightly stressed, fearful that i'm going to break down any second
i hate that we drifted apart
i remember when you were my go-to person for so much
you knew everything that happened in my life once
i called you a best friend
i always knew that you were not happy
i always knew that you were sometimes depressed
but i didn't know that it was this bad
it hurts that i can never see you again
i don't know why we didnt hangout and catch up
i dont know why i didnt text you more, or call you just to talk
i dont know why we drifted, and why i didnt try harder
but i regret it now
you think this summer i would have learned something
you think i would have realized that life is so much more precious than anyone can realize
i can't believe we let you slip through the cracks
i can't believe you had to take your own life, to feel better.
i'm so sorry
